I have nobody...
I need someone...
How hard is it to actually give someone a second chance? I mean, everybody makes mistakes. We are human. Errors and flaws are natural on us. We aren't computers, much less your ideals of God. I can bet you've screwed up at some point of your life. And you too. And you, and you, and you, and even you. You are not perfect, "you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake". Now, the thing is, we humans, have a thing that helped us survive and become a dominant species: Adaptability. Our brains can connect dots, add one to one, and see where the mistake has been made, so we don't repeat it in the future.
That is, if we have a chance to.
Now, this is where things get complicated. It's not wrong when other people constantly remind you of your mistake; on one side, it can show that they actually care about you. But, if they mean it like they're taking advantage of you, troubles arise. When people can't let go of something you did and are constantly throwing it to your face. It can hurt really bad, even more than the mistake you made.
And to you, the "mistake-maker", I want to tell you something; I share your pain. I know what it is to feel threatened all the time, afraid to move a muscle so people stop pestering you about the mountains of shit you made, trying to evade everything and everyone seems like an impossible task. Well, that's because it is. Let me tell you something; You are not your past. You are not the choices you made. Your past doesn't make your choices for you. Life is today. Life is tomorrow. You have never been your past. If you are here, reading this, is because you made a chain of choices that led you here. You are always in control of what you do. You can keep moving forward, always. Because you are not a mistake, you are not your errors. Stop attacking yourself. It's not all your fault, trust me. I've been down that road, I know how it all feels. Your mistake is just that, a mistake. No one has the right to judge you for what you did. Don't wait to become comfortably numb, that's not gonna happen. You have to fight your battle, you have to survive. You are not weak. You are not a quitter.
Hold your head up high. You are not alone. Ever. If your family doesn't want you, you have friends. If you don't have friends, you have your family. There is always someone willing to help you, trust me. It maybe hard to find, but there is someone.
Don't give up. Ever.
And now, I will adress the other end of the situation, the bully.
Hear me good here. Who the fuck do you think you are to judge anyone? Is it fun to pick on the weak, whether physically or psychologically inferior? Well, I bet you never made a mistake in your life, hum? How about how many people you got killed with your words and actions? What kind of sick pleasure do you take from pursuing someone around the world just to see- pardon, make them fail at anything they try to do?
I bet you had the perfect life yourself. One of two things happened:
You are single son, and you're jealous of everything and everyone better than you, Or;
You had some seriously abusive parents, and you must add levels to your "scream pyramid", so you're not the bottom anymore.
Want to know your mistake? Thinking everyone will always submit to you. One day, life will slap you in the face so hard, all your repressed stuff will surface and no shrink will be able to rescue you.
And I bet you believe in God too, right? Last time I checked, no God known to Mankind ever supported bullying weaklings. Your friend, Jesus? He got on that cross because people like you put Him there. And He died for your sins, not for the sins of the people you bully. God, Jesus, Allah, Vishnu, whatever you "believe" in, they are not looking after people like you. You can stop thanking them for everything you have, cuz I got news for you; If there's an Heaven, there's an Hell. And I can assure you, you're not on the Stairway.
Do you even know why is it called Stairway? You have to work your ass off to get there. And even though I'm not buying that brainwashing shit anymore, I guarantee you're not going to Heaven. And the people who commit suicide aren't supposed to go to Heaven? Based on what? Why must them endure Hell here? Because of one mistake? That mistake does not define them. Not now, not ever. They are not their mistakes. Everyone has light inside them, if you can only give them a chance to show it.
Look for what's good in people. Give them a chance. They don't deserve what you're doing to them. And even thought you wish they were dead, once they actually kill themselves, everyone regrets it. You think they're coward enough to do it? Think again. Google how many people did. How many kids commit suicide just because someone like you pick on them. In my point of view, and I bet on this, in your God's point of view, you killed them. You took a life prematurely. It should be the way of the Law, too. You have no right to be picking on the weak. You are what's wrong in this world. Take a good look in the mirror. You are no different than a killer, a murder. Think about it, and you'll know it's true.
If someone who kills Cain is punished seven times, then the one who kills me will be punished seventy-seven times
Remember, you may not what to see it, but the mirror is always staring back at you. And it knows what you did.